I think there is no going forward, it’s important to be in the spot in you, that you change in that spot inside you, no forward, no backward, left-right. My mother would say, ain't it shameful, that a person has ambitions? The family I was formed in was not like others with its standards, with the accepted rules in the society. I have opened my eyes with other type of people, living differently, then I saw - wow, it occured to me that one had to have ambitions. There is nothing like that. That day you are excited by something - an author, some music, and it’s only that, finish! It changes you in such a way, that one year lived suddenly suggests such a thing, that you begin to drown in pleasure.